July 13, 2021 - Tuesday • Re-evaluating My Why's
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But if I had to be real with myself right now, the reason why I started my blog (back in 2007) was to share my most honest and sincere thoughts; my experiences, good and bad; an outlet to my "thirsty thought" as Kryz Uy's blog was called back in the day; and to simply share my story. I started vlogging because I wanted to preserve moments and of course because a video format was a better option than an image. I started instagram just to share photos of the good and the beautiful. I hoped to inspire other people from my mundane life as other content creators have done for me (no matter how big or small). Those are the reasons why I'm on this platform.
I've been feeling extremely demotivated the past few days but sitting down, being honest with myself and re-evaluating my reasons as to why I started this in the first place kinda helped put things in perspective. I sometimes forget that in order to be a good content creator, everything must come from the heart. I realized that it's hard to stay in the game if you're only doing this for the fame and/or money. I've seen creators rise to fame so quickly only to end up falling so fast and so hard.
I mean, isn't the honesty and the integrity of a creator one of the major aspects as to why the people follow them? I know this for sure because I'm part of an audience too and as a spectator, I prefer watching / reading someone's work who I know is authentic. And sometimes, to be very honest, I lose that when I create content whether it be videos or photos (I lose authenticity in a sense that sometimes, I create content just for the sake of it even thought I don't enjoy it). Sometimes I beat myself up because it always has to be perfect. I remember something Casey Neistat said to one of his vlogs, that one of the best ways to create video content (or any other content for that matter) is to do it all in one go - no retakes! I try to apply this on some of my work but most of the time the cynic in me takes over.
However today, after taking a walk, some ranting and finally sitting down by myself telling myself to be completely honest, I just wanna be myself. I just want to be me when I create content. That's all. Which is why, if you're reading this blog, get ready for some raw content on a regular. I'll be babbling like the mid 2000's 😅 See you on the next post!
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